so it's been awhile,

quite awhile actually.  there’s a lot going on, none that i really care to spread to the inter-web, mostly because of the people who would end up reading it first, just to spite me.

in other news, i caught swine flu, and am currently getting over it.  by the time i went to the health center, they told me i was just getting over it.  so whatever.  and then a few days later, my school made an announcement that they were giving out free vaccines.  fucking irony. fucking rutgers. whatever. i probably wouldn’t have taken the vaccine anyway, just because i’d be scared of contracting swine flu and getting even sicker from the vaccine, which has happened to me in the past.

i’m starting to feel safer in new york city than in new brunswick.  the other day this week, 3 men, packing heat, hit on me from the other side of the street.  that’s just one of the many incidents this week alone.  what? why (and how, i want to know) did i all of a sudden become so drop dead gorgeous in new brunswick, and why can’t i happen to have this luck else where, when i was younger maybe, wishing to be more beautiful? lol jk, but really, it’s getting to be ridiculous, that i don’t even feel that safe here anymore. but anyways. whatever. i’m getting back to that apathy that has missed me so much.  so much, that apathy even wrote me a letter begging me to come back to him.

i want lunchables. like right now. i love lunchables.  eating lunchables makes me feel like the kid i never got to be, i guess, i don’t really know.  there are too many i don’t knows in my life right now.  but i know i want lunchables at least.

xoxo s.